One day you will look back
and be so glad you chose to keep going,
even without knowing
how everything would turn out.
You will be glad you rose above the doubt
that your significance was too small.
You will be glad you did not give up
and you chose to give your all.
You won’t be able to see it all right now. You won’t be able to see how it all turns out right here in the middl eof this journey. However, this doesn’t mean your presence does not matter. That does not mean you cannot continue to sow seeds as you keep on traveling.
One of the hardest places to remember this truth is when it comes to relationships. We can sow seeds into our professional endeavors, our passions, and hobbies, and see results over time, but when it comes sowing in the lives of other people, the results can be a lot more vague, and unfortunately, it can be very disappointing.
Perhaps you extended grace to a friend time and time again, but she seemed to take it for granted. Maybe you put in extra hours to help your boss, but you barely received a ‘thank you.’ Maybe you have a family member who always seems to needs to you, but they never seem to be available when you need them.
This can incredibly discouraging, especially when you have really gone out of your way to be there for someone. However, it is important to remember this: even when you establish new boundaries with someone who used take you for granted, it doesn’t mean your time has been wasted with them. When you have done all you could do, but it didn’t seem to be enough for them, it doesn’t mean what you did was in vain. You are still free to carry on knowing the seeds you have sown still matter. Even if nothing seemed to change about them, something changed in you: you learned to wake up to your worth and find that you would still grow in the way you were meant to, no matter who did or did not appreciate you.
Years from now, when you look back on this season, you may be surprised at how certain relationships have changed over the years. You might be happy with some of the relationships that evolved in positive ways you were not expecting. You might be grieved or discouraged by others that eventually fell apart. There are so many factors that contribute to the way a relationship can change over the years, and there’s no way you can single handedly control this. However, you can choose to find peace in knowing that through it all, you continued to sow good seeds. You continued to be the one who did not let the shortcomings of others distract you from who were becoming. This does not mean that the actions of others will not affect you, and you should never, ever let anyone walk over you. But just remember this: they do not have any power over your soul or the seeds you choose to sow. They do not control the sun, the rain, the soil, or anything else required for your seeds to spring up from the ground into their bloom. There is still time for you. And one day you will look back and see that your seeds grew in the way they were meant to.
More tomorrow…
Sincerely,
Morgan Harper Nichols